It was an oversight
A memory lapse
A failed act
There was no reason
Consciousness
Or purpose
I just forgot my heart there, with him
Didn't realize till I needed it back
Till started hurting
(Yeah, I had forgotten also that love hurts)
Till I figured out I couldn't control its beats anymore
I can't blame him
He hadn't ask for it
He haven't stole it
He might even haven't noticed I left it there
It's not his fault
I didn't give him as gift
Or left it there, at the center of the table to be found
I don't even remember exactly when and where I left it
All I know is that when I was back I was missing it
I must have forgotten it there, with him
And I want to ask him to bring me back
Because I miss him
Because this absence of him hurts
Because I'm afraid I won't see him anymore
And I'm afraid to ask him to bring it back me
I don't want him to know that I let my defenses down
I don't want him to see how little is my heart
I don't want him to know how cold and hard I can be
Maybe I should just let it go
Start to get used to live without him
Learn how to be a heartless being
After all, who needs a heart when you are so afraid to love?
